After leaving Buenos Aires, we spent 10 days living at an Ashram in the small town of General Rodriguez, which is about an hour outside of the city. We kept a simple schedule of garden work, eating, meditating, and doing yoga...I wrote the following in my notebook during my time there:
This life is simple…and straightforward. We work, we eat, we mediate and we do some yoga.
On the work…I try to assign goals to my work, or make it a game. “Lets see if I can weed this patch in 3 minutes…” or “How many weeds are in this row?...winner gets a drink of water!” These mind games keep me somewhat focused.
On the food…the kitchen is ‘spiritually clean’, if not quite ‘actually clean’. I was really grossed out by the flies at first. But I haven’t died, or gotten sick. I suppose it’s making my immune system stronger.
On meditation…quite frustrating. I find that it doesn’t ‘still my mind’, but only gives me an opportunity to think about EVERYTHING. And in no particular or practical order. My mind is like that monkey swinging in the tree…from branch to branch to branch, oh wait- look a leaf!, then another branch, eat a bug, branch, do a flip, another branch, so on and so forth…I suppose that’s the challenge in it. I think I need more practice. Maybe I’ll like it when I’m older…like vegetables.
On yoga…Yoga is okay. Sometimes my back hurts, and sometimes I feel quite un-flexible; like a piece of toast in a room full of pretzels. Oh well, I do like the part when we lay on the floor at the end of class.
But I think what I really like about this place is the space. It’s so uncomplicated and minimalistic that suddenly there is time to think, to feel, to reminisce, to sort out. Yet I seem to have gotten little ‘productive thinking’ done. I feel like I can’t really relax and take it all in, since I’ve got all this stress I’m carrying around with law school applications. But maybe it’s important to make a distinction between relaxing thought and productive thought. I think I’ve come to realize that this isn’t really the place for ‘productive thought’, at least how I would define it. True productivity would be writing an excellent personal statement, securing 2-3 letters of recommendation, filling out applications, etc. But of course, none of that has begun. But then again, maybe it doesn’t need to. Like my friend Nikki said yesterday “don’t worry about what you haven’t done, just focus on what you can do.” I think the purpose of this place isn’t to be productive, but to take away a certain understanding. To realize the need for moderation- in consumption and in thought-, For simple tasks, quiet space, and a peaceful mind. A space for mindfulness and calm-tranquilo.
